My how time has passed. Spring and summer have flown by without a word in this blog. There's no point trying to "catch up" because I know I'll leave out something important. JB is in his own apartment (that we'll be paying for, but still...). DA and DB are now upper classmen (or will be in another week and a half). John has started a new job. Our lives continue to be filled with changes. I'm still at the same job, teaching the same thing, sweeping the same floors, feeding the same pets (with some additions), washing the same clothes. On the outside I don't seem to have changed like the rest of the family. On the inside, I feel like I'm a totally different person than I was a year ago - or even 6 months ago. In some ways I'm much more uptight. For the first time EVER I find myself being concerned about having enough money to cover our expenses. I don't have the faith I once had. I feel kind of lost and insecure. I don't feel the least bit entertaining or witty. I just don't feel like my usual sassy self. I don't like this new feeling. It's uncomfortable. But a friend I used to work with once told me that sometimes God puts glass in your rut to get you to move out of it. Glass is uncomfortable!! Is that what's happening to me now? If it is, what am I supposed to be doing? Do I keep doing what I'm doing now and add something new? Or do I dump all this and totally start over? I'm trying to look within and find some answers. I'll let you know if I find any. In the mean time, I'll try to update more often with the goings on of our kinda crazy family.
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